My Life now

It has been 3 months I got home( unfortunately that is) A home that is once mine is no longer mine anymore I guess:)

Well let me start, I broken off with Rowdy as we speak of it :) Well there are certain things in life you only learn when the person u thought loved u well didnt actually love u at all.

So today I stand. Never a day since I stepped onto Singapore land I have been happy . I seem to lost what made me happy before when I was here. Job interviews make me sick to my stomach and alas I don't think I am cut out for this .

To make matters worst, I have a family whom I seem to have lost respect for. So there goes my chances of being a good person in the family :) I work in a way whereby logical thinking and intelligence governs my desicion making. And with that, I think they are not be able to accept.

Now happier things in line, I have been lucky to have met a certain someone who brings me hope. Hope that happier things may just be in my stride. He taught me alot of things regular people don't or encourage. He showed me that the 20% of people ( non -idiots) do exists. For that he gained me. He took away my breath as I speak. Thanks love.U gave me hope and for that I will repay u I promise u that.

Now I am admist of major desicion making . I need to strive for something better. Something more worthwhile than this . True love prevails thru hard times. Love may be a small world but its miracles felt by many who lived and told the tale. Famous couples vouch for that. Love not necessary be relationship kinda love. LOve in all forms. The love for life. I need to find that.

Soon my life will,must and is better :) I must be happy :) will be :)

XOXO
LuLu